23 August 2011

5 months, never post anything here..

well, first thing I'm gonna say is : I HATE SMOKE!!

I'm typing this with someone near me smoking, yeah, she is my senior..

Even though she is my aunt, I don't care, she smokes, the risk is on me..

I was not in my mood since he came back..

Most part of it was good actually, but a mistake changes everything..

the nearer he gets the more I'm afraid of..

I don't know since when I started to not trust him..

I guess it was two days ago..

First,it was a girl who broke up with her boyfriend and came looking for mine..

This girl used to rejects all other people outings..

Now when she got no friend, she kept pestering my boy..

I hate her, she never thought how stupid other people are being rejected by her, and now she came looking other people as if nothing had happen before..Such a shame..

She is someone close to me, but I don't trust her, because she did a lot of things that shouldn't be done..And she could just lie like in a drama series..

I don't know it ended, seems they stop bbming each other..

That's good..=)

But it was on Saturday, I checked on his phone while he was taking a bath..

He chatted with his ex, on Friday..

Like a friendly chat..

But there was a part when the girl says, if I eat too much nobody would want me, the boy just said I want..the girl said yeah you are right, the boy says haha..peace peace..

err..what was that suppose to mean?

I couldn't figure it out..

When I told him I check through his phone, he ask me what I found out, I said nothing..

He said that's good..

I don't know what it means either...

He used to request me to love him more..

now that I did, it seems he is he one who doesn't know ow to cherish it..

I hope it's just my thoughts like what happen to the first girl..And then later on they stop bbming each other..and became like usual friends..Then I will be at ease..

I hope it will be that way..Where I'm just thinking too much..

My mom, suddenly doesn't allow me to go to Sunway with him..

I don't know whether his father allowed him or not. but what if he is allowed then I'm not..

Oh God, please let it the way I want it to be..

Where everything will be smooth in the end, where I'm allowed to go, and where I don't miss IT!!

All i can do is keep praying..

=(

mwah..

secylia.c.tan.

First Post in 2011

Well hello March 2011..

This is my first post in 2011

I remember i wanted to post something during the first month thru my handphone,

but i couldn't type anything thru the mobile..lol..

anyway..

there's so much happening during this three months..

i couldn't remember exactly though

but still i'm trying to post something here

well, its another half month to the end of March.

And 1.5 month till my first year contract.

i have another one year to go.

i don't know if i;m going on here or not.

but feel like looking for a better environment.

haiya,still a long way to go.

drop it.

first, what came to my mind,

i'm in love.hihi.his name is zhi wei.

and i'm no longer single.

hehe.it seems this is the only happy things i post in my blog.lol

yep,i'm attached with him since 13 March 2011

three days ago.

i said yes,it has always been yes.

so far, it's about three months that he woo after me.

so glad to finally find someone who really loves you truly and sincerely.

but pity is,he is in malaysia at most time.

guess i have to spend more time alone then together.

hmm.no worries,i hope i cud pass it smoothly.

and actually right now he is back in batam.

dats why he gave me the question to become his girlfriend.

hihi.so far, we see each other every day.

another bad thing,last monday,

i went to the tax office,

where i wasn't that concentrate maybe,

i bump into a tree there.luckily i was not ask to compensate anything.

but i don't know  how to tell my HR.

so in the end i lied,saying another car bump me lo.

then compensate 200k.haih.use my own money loh.

poor me.and im so trauma now.don't want drive.

afraid.so afraid lo.huhu.can't get over so far.

and she is going to he tax office tomorrow.please please please don't let me get busted.

i'm gonna be doom if it happens.so please don't.(praying praying)

that's all i remember so far.

=()
mwah..
secylia.c.tan.