New Year's coming

Heyyy..Heloow..Hai....
Its almost new year..
Actually i don't know how to start writing..
Cause there's too much too say..


Anyway..I celebrate my Xmas eve in Singapore..
Exactly on Clarke Quay dat night..
My cousin awen was joining too..
I reached about like almost 5..
then shop2 for a while then Annie came..
We then towards toa pa yoo..
Looking for Joice, xin yi and Catty,,
Wait wait then already 8 plus..
Then Annie n me was suppose to be going out on a meal on 25..
But she said she went back to Batam..
So it was cancelled..
then we went to Toa Pa yoo food court..
Came another two person..
Vicky and Cash with two very diff style..lol..
One very feminine..the other one very tomboy..
But they are quite humorous lha..
Fun to make frens...
=))


Then Awen told me that she, Zhao and Lisa are going to JB tomollow..
Ask me to join..I was glad too..But she told me she doesn't have Zhao d number..lol
like that how they meet up ar..
Then I was the one to contact Zhao luh..
I told him I was coming..
Then we text half way,he didn't reply and suddenly called me..
lol..I shocked how come he suddenly called..
We chit chat like I don't know how long..
But it was when Awen started eating Ice Mango until finish we haven't hang up..
Then I ask him where he go for Xmas eve..He said stay at home..Prepare for tomolow JB escape..
Then he ask me too,i told him we were going to Clarke Quay, but I didn't told him we were going clubbing..
Then he just said don't go home too late..
=") shy shy..lol..


Then Awen was underage so we could not enter,actually I don't want to enter also lha..
Don't really feel like going clubbing,,
then we go eat $1 ice creamm..lol..
till like 11.30 we went home..
we even got the evil hairband on us..lol..
till home around 12.30..
n wait debby till 2.00 accompanied by calbee chips and cup noodles...
lol..plus milk tea and fb as well..


then couldn't wait any longer cause debby extended her dismiss time to 3.30 AM..
omg..we slept then..
we woke up at 7.00..
suppose to be 6.30..
lol
we were late then..
Awen also was put inside the custom office..lol..
for how so long..
her punishment is to treat us icecream lo..


reach Jb like about almost 11.00 bha..
reach woodland at 8.30++
then change to kranji afraid got no bus..
then about 9.00 we set off with 170 bus luh..
den to the immigration like waiting for Awen almost 10.00
then bus to JB reach at 10.30++
another passport session like almost 11.00 too..
haiya..
directly towards Neway KTV..
20++ RGGT per person for karaoke 2 hours..
and buffet..
omg..we eat to the fullest..
and there were also extra meal..
but we just couldn't feel it up anymore..lol..


den off to shopping..
but i didn't buy anything so far..
till like around 8.00++
we went to one supermarket loh..
all malaysia stuff that import to indonesia..
then we were like i thought this is ours this is ours..
lisa said stop it guys..
you don't wanna go back to indo ar?lol
funny lha..den we have dinner of steaks..
den go back..reach sngapore thru passport n imigration like about 9.30++
then all of us just dismiss diff ways loh..
Zhao said text him when we reached..
I jut reached like about 10.24..
then Zhao texted asking if I already reached..
I was about to text him, but he texted..=)
But really I just reached what..lol..


Yepp..so far, this year christmas is very valuable to me..
very happy..and not even a minute wasted..
i still remember two years ago d christmas..
we were at my house bbq-ing too..
just though of it..=)


anyway..continue my story tomolow..


=)
mwah..
secylia.c.tan.

Had My New Lappy..Laf ya dad..

Hey..I had my new lappy on 11 November 2010..
My dad bought me one after all..It was actually paid on 10 November..
but to be taken on the next day..
And another thing..
The college of where I'm going is making us crazy..
Students who don't pay couldn't take the test..
lol..wat a funny joke.,
In the end all of us taken the test on 11 November where all our classmates were suppose to pay before due...
Funny huh..anyway I'm not distracted by that..Because the payment queue was a long long one..
Sigh...


Nothing much happen as I can't remember anything good or bad so far...
Can't remember the happy ones..Don't wish to remember the bad ones..
LOL..


Had my salary todayy..and nothing left to spend..wkkwkw..
trying to buy a new contact lenses..But don't know of which color to choose..
Feel like dying my hair again..But mummy won't allow..
Going on another hole in my ear..Scared  of different needles..
And cut down my hair..Gonna cry out loud of that happens..
trying to change to a bad girl as I can..but nothing has accomplish..
LOL..Cause I'm tired..I'm getting bored..!!
Wanna change my self to someone who he doesn't know..
Hmm...So far not so good..
Anyway, talk some other time again..


=)
mwah..
secylia.c.tan.

2010.2010

WTF!!!!


Today's date is damn not nice!!!
I already master driving..turning around..breaking..everything smooth so far..
I go the usual way I use to go..The usual way like I drive..
But haihhhh..


Damn IT!!
I was driving smooth way through out the company this morning..
But then suddenly a lorry from behind just cut my way..
I saw it from the spion glass..
Usually when there is a vehicle come suddenly they just go their own way,I go my own way..
So it will not bump each other..
but this lorry "KI SIAO"..
He cut my way suddenly then go very near to my way, he didn't go his own way..
he go my way, by then it was too late for me to go more to the front and to the right...
Because from the straight way there are much vehicles driving fast..
haihhh..KRKRKKRKKR..
Damn!!! The car physic ruin..The color came out, the glass almost break..
Walaoooo..Totally ruin..I was shocked all of a sudden..
Don't know what to do..Haihh..Don't feel like telling all the stories out..
Really make me trauma..Don't feel like driving anymore..
the problem is, its my auntie's car..Even though its not my fault, but I just don't feel good..
She gave me the trust to learn using her car, to drive her car..
Driving for one month already..So smooth..So far not yet even bump..But this time bump a lorry, I don't think its my fault.. Because I have been driving nice and smooth for the past few weeks..And nothing happens..
Argg..Im making it as seems its my fault..I just don't feel good towards my auntie..Haihh


I told Bby the moment it happen.. He was shocked too..Totally worried..
I didn't gave him a reply immediately..i was driving by then to the btam center..
hmmm...den he called many times.. Texted a lot of times too..I was having a conversation with my mum..I just can't express how it felt..I just told my mum everything..My mum almost said I didn't drive carefully,. 
But she change her mind..She just laugh a bit and said more careful next time..


Den when I arrive at office, I had a conversation with Bby.. He said he was worried sick..Hmmm..
I never thought he would worried that much..Hmm..He just laugh at me also..Haihh..
He said this will be a lesson for you..make sense luh..He also said driving car take risks..If you don't make a mistake then you will never learn..A bit relieve after hearing that..He said lots of things to calm my nerves down..I'm glad..haha..=p


Anyway..It has been a really unlucky day to me..
I don't know how to face my auntie for the rest..Don't feel like driving anymore, trauma, scare if anything happen to the car again, I'm doom..Further, I was thinking this time I bump into a vehicle, next time I might just bump into a person..DIAOO!!!! How can I make that possibility out of my mind..haihh..I;m not driving alone just now..Also can bump..What if I was driving alone, what else can I bump into..DOOM!!really DOOM!!!


=.="
mwah..
secylia.c.tan.

Here I go Again..

Almost a month I've been missing from this blog..
Random estimation..=.=''


Many things has been happening to me..
Both happy and sad..
First, I love my new phone..The X6..
Which cost 2.370.000 IDR..
Bought on 11'09'10..Saturdae with my beloveed mummy and sister..
Then i went to BCS for my new pony hair cut..
Back to it was..The straight one..Quite suitable..
Hmmm..
I didn't sold out the old phone 6120C..
Because it was OUR phonee..=)


Everything went not so smooth..not so bad too..
Both are balance..


I...had something in mind..
I don't know when did I post this status in FB..
Maybe few days ago..


I said something like..I regret for not choosing the way I'm able to achieve at..
To study in poly..I'm sure my scores are high enaf to enter..
Even though it is only D3..But at least much better than batamm..
Two years from now..
I finish my contract.. I dislike having my college in that kind of place..
Haihhh..
BUt Im very confuse of which college I sud choose??
NYP?SP?TP?..
Or what..


NYP and Sp are my favorite Poly..
But there is no course that I favor there..
And in case I take some kind like BioChem Engineering..
I;m doomed..Driving me crazyy..
but I know it gonna make me enter NTU or NUS.If I really study hard..


But TP had the course I wanna take..
Hospitality and Tourism..
And in case I finish its only D3..
I finish only until there..For three years..
But if I take NYP or SP..It gonna take me 7 years..


I'm really confuse..


=(
mwah..
secylia.c.tan.

Oh Yeah..!!!

Today's post is gonna be a combination of the past few weeks I passed so far..
Arggghh..
Now I talk about the first thing that came to my mind..
Mum scolded me this morning..
haihhhhh...damn it...wth..!!!
just really feel like scolding and smashing pple..
crazy..she never said thanks whenever I did something right..
Only scold me for the wrong..Hellowwwww..I will always reply whenever a msg is received even if it is not my phoneee...But I was damn busy yesterday...I have so many things to do..I don't even have the time to hold my own phone rather..Can you imagine....She just scold and scold..Saying that I know it's not your job,but at laest you should help me reply the msg..Blablabla..Then what I get when I answer lots of phone calls,you didn't say a thing either..crazyyyy...She keep on repeating saying that even though it's not my job even though it's not my job..blablablabla..This Shuang Hor thing is giving me a headache...
Can you just believe it!!!We already send an email over..So I don't think there is a need for me to reply..More over I'm BUSYYYYYYYY!!!haiyaaaaaa...I hate it hate it hate it...Notify them?..Unnecessary..!!!Im busy..damn busyyyyyy..And that damn Rini..She keeps on calling..Very lososoosooo...I'm also having my college that time...So I don't care..With Shuang Hor,we already sent an email,just notification is unnecessaryyy..and rini,not a big customer,so I didn't pick up the phone either..Next time don't give me your damn phone!!!!IIIHHHHH...
Boiling up plus fire uppppp..
and now another thing happen againnnnn!!!!


I opened up m face book this morning..
I found his face book status..
he wrote something like its gonna be a busy day today..fighting...
den my dai ko commented and there was this girl..
her name was......initial fann...
they commented each other with words i don't understand..
it was like a Korean language or what..
I went stress reading those stuffs..
I cudnt understand,,
and this girl has been commenting on his face book often maybe..
haaihh..
(Singing 'U drive me crazyyyyy")
Nutss...
I was likeee,my mood was totally down..
Den I started chatting with this old fren of mine,..
She is the first best friend of min..She understands me a lot..
=)
After chatting with her...
I felt that I don't really care about the Korean thing..
It was not really important..


nothing in mind already..


=(
mwah..
secylia.c.tan.

Orientation alias Ospek

This Ospek happened last Sunday 25 July 2010..
honestly I hate that day..
Flashing back..


I woke up at 4 plus..
To prepare everything..
Haih..
No sunblock applied coz I was thinking it might be a good weather..
It turn out to be that it was a damnly hot weather..
We started submitting the things we were suppose to bring..
It lighten our bag a lil..
Then we set off to bus number 38..
with the green team..
I forgot to say..We are the BLUES..
we all have the same tshirt..
with names on it.
=)


Next the journey was like half an hour...
Everybody was practicing the song,the cheers..
there were even a song for Gici..
It was not a nice song really..
ahahha..


we arrive half an hour later..
sitting on the floor..
it was an open court..
then writing our names on the INDOMIE board..
hanging over our neck with black ropes..
And I saw him..Yes,we were a bit embarrassed..ahhaha..


We then sett of climbing mountains..
Oh no..Tired like hell..
One of us fainted halfway..
Another one the other way..
=(
so sad..
we were the forth group..
So we have to pass the first second and third..
We have to greet them in a funny way..
It was a lil bit difficult..
but we still manage..
So we arrive on our post,high up there..
So far far away..
Hahhah..
We reach..
And look for a straw..The leader will be the one to pick up with his mouth..
I forgot.we even need to sing some songs which we get to learn in the bus while ago..
Until they are satisfied..Haih..
=(


Next..the instruction is to tied up all our feet together and yell MOOOO on our way to the DESSERT..
alright..we did..it was hard for us to walk all the way with the rope stuck on our feet..
by the time we almost reach..the seniors were there under a some kind like bus stop..
where they don't get hot..
hmmm...
they were saying that we weren't wet cos we pass a different route..not like some of the other groups did..
so we take off our shoes..hang over our neck and went inside the mud pool..yikes..
i hate it...
half of the body was wet and sucks..
=p


Next we were like walking with naked feet to our destination..THE DESSERT..
it was near..then bring out the noodles..and eggs..and the guys were looking fr some wood which can be burnt later for fire..
The weather was extremely hot..and in-expectable the time is only 10.45 A.M
Holy shit!!!Our skins were burning like hell..
but still we have to bear with it..
hmmm..i donoe how long it takes for us to cook the noodles..
but we weren't the first one to finish the food..
ahhaha..then..i donoe what else we do..
Like playing with a bamboo stick..
Then sliding down the ball with water..and making them out again..
We were the third winner in that..
There is also the one two three game..Like children..ahahha
Hmm..But the weather real sucks..My skin is burning..
Crazy...=p
We were almost done..
Gathering in the middle..
then my cousin had a gastric pain..
So I sent her to the P3K..


Ah ya..We won the most compact group after all..
But out cheers didn't came out well..
hahaha..
But at least we had the same clothes..
Hmmm..
yay..We took pictures afterwards..And set off through climbing the hills again...
My cousin sat on the motorcycle..
hihihi..
It was not that long like we expected..
Still,when we were on the bus on our way home to Gici,my skin is still burning..
Haih..


Yeah..by the time we reach..My cousin's boyfriend is already there waiting..
hmm...
Again,we talked..Me n Mr.48..
I said that he was tuning black..
He was saying that he was tired and wants to sleep..
I asked him if we could get home already..
He said he was just putting his bag..
Then when Im about to leave,we talked again..
I told him that we cud get home already,get our stuffs and go home..And I asked him if he has anything there to be taken..He said no..And I said that he cud go home already..he said Ohh..And we said bye...hhihihi..So happy am I...Even hough Im burning..
=p


So..we went home..resting and bath..and else..
And taken a holidae for Monday..
We were too tired to go to work..
=p


=)
mwah..
secylia.c.tan.

Totally Vexed

HEY!!


Its been a week since I lasted posted something...
As I have nothing in mind for the past few days..
Hmm...


Last Sunday, I went to Gici Uni for some sort of program..
They ask us to gather for this coming 25 July for Ospek..
Where is actually orientation for new comers..
I was in the first session, with my cousin..
One of my friend was there too..
Its not a smooth one rather..
Cos I dislike an Indonesian girl who has been controlling the group..
She is not even the leader but she acted like one..
The leader and the assistant were even nicer..


Will ya please shut up..I hated her so much..
But I have to bear with it, cos she was in the same group of mine..
Haih..Hopeless..
She only knows how to control this and that where in fact it isnt her job at all..


Next thing is..
I saw someone's car..
Its him..
Im not mistaken,,
I was out for the first session..
second session starts at 3..
he was there..
and just by accident I saw the piggy TV that I gave him..
It was a gift flom Singapore...
Yep..Its Mr.48..
hmmm..
I never try to think why he was still hanging that pig I gave him..
but Im glad after all..
At least he thinks of me whenever he see that stuff..
ahhaha..
all right..


He passes by and he doesn't take a glance at me..
Is it on purpose or he actually didn't see..
Idk..
I asked him yesterdae..
Since it was his first day at work..
I support him and encourage him..
I texted..And ask aboud yesterdae matter..
He said he really didn't see me..
Not pretending not to see me..
At least you know Im glad that he still treat me as his friend..
not like a total stranger or enemy rather..
that would be enough already..
I get to spend some short sweet memories with him..
=)
Im glad..I really do..


Time to dismiss..
Pack up and leave..


=)
mwah..
secylia.c.tan.

Being Stupid

Its another day of working..
Yup,Its Tuesday..
Sleepy in the office..
Gonna doze off soon in front of the computer..


My mood is ruined early in the morning..
Arrgg...Vexed up again and again..


I found that the pic that I and my some other working partners took in Singapore was post in FB already..
I tagged my self and make it my profile picture..
The first one to like was Mr.Lee..
Then we chatted in the FB chat..
Alryt,why did I chatted him..?


It was because last night he suddenly texted me..
He ask me what happen between me and Mr.Xu..
I told him what happen..
Cos some of them said things aboud me in FB..
Its the fren of mine and cousin of mine..
Nuts..


There is this word that encourages me..
He was the first one to say that everything was never my fault...
cause I have the right to reject someone,to avoid someone..
Now who the hell is wooing u?..He is the one..
so u did no mistake..
And many things he said that at least make me a lot happier..
^^
We stop texting cos he was doing some work of his..


By then suddenly he replied saying dat what happened in FB was not totally talking aboud me..
they are just talking aboud others..
Almost the same situation like me of course..
Dat means dat he went and find out the truth dat it isn't me that they are talking aboud.
So glad to know he actually done that for me..
And so we texted thoroughly..
Just like before when we were a couple..


But by early in the morning..
The FB chat thing..
Alright,he likes my pic as I had mention above..
Then we chatted..
Then he ask me where did I took it?..
When did I go there?..
I told him..It was flom Indosat..
And at the same time..He told me that Eve's mum were also invited..
In am moment fired up..
Arrgghhh..
I told him that it was none of my business..next time don't tell me..
he said alright..
and wanna go off alreadie..
i continue saying,
btw next time if there is anything that has to do with ur gurl,there is no need to tell me..
then he answer me, that is not yet my girl..
i told him dat the sooner the better so that u wont have to tell things aboud her to me..
he replied, so u mean if she became my girl, then im allowed to say it infront of u..?
I dun get what he reallie mean actually..


Hmm..
really fired up in a moment..
forget it..
It has always been like that anyway..
Im used to being fooled..
=.="


=((
mwah..
secylia.c.tan.

LA VENSA PHOTO SESSION

This are some of the pictures that I took three months ago..

Where I totally remember when it was..

Cos something happen on dat day..

And it didnt get any better..

Dun feel like mentioning it..

Hmm..

=)

mwah..

secylia.c.tan.

Sickly Monday

As everybody hates Mondae..

me too..
First day of the week..

Gosh..I had lots of things to do todae..

From the monthly report that I have to submit..

OT of the employees..

And else..

Intend to bring home all my work and finish them at home..

Hope I can finish soon..

Submitted on 15 this month..

Hmm..

I have been missing for only two days..

And I cant stand it..

I have seen his post..

See how badly he is hurt..

And everyone seems to be standing on his side..

Saying dat he has done nothing wrong..

Alryt..Push all the mistakes to me?..

FINE..IM VERY FINE WITH IT..
Has always been letting other thinks dat its always my fault..

Im doing this not to run away from the reality,not fooling everyone either..

but I just wanted everyone not to be hurt..Is it really wrong to think dat way?

Hmmm...Storming hard on my brain..

But it seems dat nobody understand..

Everybody tot that I was trying to hurt him..To hurt them rather..

WHY AND WHY??Always saying dat he has done nothing wrong?..

Then Im the one..Who else?..He doesnt deserve this kind of pain?..then me?..

I deserve this..?

Nobody understands..No one ever does..

they only get to listen..

its not their fault anyway..it has always been mine..

isn't it?..

haih..sighing real hard..

how am i suppose to be with another guy when in fact i also have some other one in mind?..

isnt that just killing two birds with one stone?..

hmm..

isnt that just very hurting?..its being totally unfair?..

i never wanna be that way..never did..

dats why i tend to go missing and everyone makes it my fault..

i dun care how many times i have been saying dat everyone think its my fault..

i never get tired of saying those..

cos dats the fact that everyone has been talking aboud..has been concluding aboud..

i dun need anyone to understand me..

not anyone..

im enaf being my self alone like this..it has always been this way..

im tired enaf..im loaded with more than enaf problems recently..

please don add anymore to it..

and i dun need any confront from anybody..

ice cream and chocolate doesnt work this time..

its not enaf to at least calm down my nerves..

haih..

how i wish dat somedae im gonna lot of happy things in my blog..

not frustrating like this..

work busies me..frens accompanying me..

dats a lot better even though they donoe what things im facing ryt now..

as i have said..i dun need anyone to understand..

cos i know nobody can..and nobody will..

=(

mwah..

secylia.c.tan.

Definitely not a Good Day

I'M FREAKING OUT!!!

It was a total disaster of what I damnly experience last night and today as well..

I cudnt stand it anymore..

Going crazy realie..

I decided to gone missing for the next coming days until I settle down..

And cool my nerves..

But it was not that easy as well..

My plan doesnt go right..

Cos the one I was hoping for texted me this morning..

Alright,first step totally ruin..

Im fine with it actually..

Hmmmm..

Lets start with last night..

I had a not very good night..

Even though I got ice cream to cool me down whenever I was unhappy..

It started with a msg..

Actually it happens few days ago when I was totally down..

Cos of my grand pa's condition..

I'm not in a very good mood either...

That guy chatted me..

Maybe I was a lil bit rude but I didn't notice at all..

Yay,he said something like jokes, but I didn't answer in a good way..

And becos of dat,we started a fight..

But by then I told him that I was not in a good mood..

He gets even unhappier..

Saying dat I pour all my "bad mood" on him..

It fired me up a lil..And I told him dat he doesnt even know my problem..

Ok,i never said a word aboud it cos he never ask..

In the end I only told him dat my grand pa got in the hospital..

He never replied and went off..

Arrgggghh..!!!

Then it was yesterdae afternoon he texted me asking me aboud my grand pa's condition..

At last...=)

I was glad of cors..

At least he does care..

hmmm..

everything was fine while we texted..

Den he suddenly didnt reply me,as he was having his college i guess..

ok..anyway he make me a lil bit better..

cos i was totally real mad when we fought..

just like both of us was being hard headache,stubborn,and unreasonable..

And here's the conflict..

He suddenly replied, and asked me what my relation with "S"..

Frens of cors..As I was only treating him that way..

Asking me what have we done..holding hands..

yup,we did...Other than that no more..

Then I dunow who the hell told him dat "S" put his arm around my shoulder..

It did realie happen in SV..I tried to avoid of cors..

After he knew it,he get so worked up..

So angry,so emotional,and so DISSAPOINTED..Hellow???

Who the hell knows what he is up to..???

How am I suppose to randomly answer that question..???

He finally said one thing dat makes everything so clear..JEALOUSY..

My mind was in a total blank..I tot he never cares..

And I answered him,who I am to u?and why do u care?..

u wanna stop me?..FINE..go on..

I have no right to stop..Its up to u..As long as u guys gonna be happy..

Bye n take care..

????????

Den what does he want?..

Cant I have someone to love me?..

Is it a mistake if I want someone to accompany me?..

Facing all this loneliness is not what I ever wanted..

He dun understand..

He said I can,but just don be so open,and also hate girls being dat way..

As long as Im happy..

he is stress and going crazy..

I cudnt undrstand my self in a moment..He is going crazy?

Yup,me too..felt what I felt before..

Next he said dat I finally had my revenge..and also said dat he felt this way before..

when he broke up wif me..And now its the second time..

Bravo!!"I tot we cud have chances,but its gonna be impossible..U guys must be happy.."

When he broke up wif me?..he felt what?..like this?going crazy?

Or is it Im the one going crazy?..Im not ganna be happy..

Cos I dun like that guy and I never will..

Yha,u happy now?..u had ur revenge..Congrats..n u said u dun like him,but u let him hold ur hands and wat so ever..

So u tot I really took revenge?..Im not dat wu liao..And I did avoid him alryt..

Is none of my concern if u wanna take revenge or not..All I know is dat,ur attitudde makes me real mad..Nomore..And the rest,its all ur business..

FINE if everything is our business..Why did u get mad?..Who I am to u?..I tot I was not important..Ryt?..Is it?..

For what did I got angry..Hohoh.Funny..Ur nobody to me..Dun be so proud..Just watch out..

Im not being any proud..I just nedded someone to be there..Needed someone to care..Thats all..

Dats good if you are not being proud..Just wait and see..U alreadie got someone..

Yup,I will wait n see ur revenge..And no one has ever been there..It's ok if u dun understand..

i will not have my revenge on you..U got no mistake and so do I,right?..If u think I am at fault, feel free to tell me..Im ok..

Nope and nothing..Its just being usual..Its just dat we weren't honest enaf..Never wanted to say what we have been feeling..Isn't it?

Yha,its like dat..So what have u been feeling after all this time..?

Loneliness..Has always been waiting..And never accepted anyone..

lonely?But now not anymore right?..Good den..Its up to u now..

Not anymore?..Who was there?..Nobody..4get it..Its my problem anyway..

Yha,its ur problem..And Im nobody to u anymore..U said it just now..So I cant accompany u anymore..

Its not u,but me..Im nobody to u anymore..U just dunow how important u are..

Im gonna vomit soon..u said it just now dat Im nobody to u..I retreat..Its ok..take it as u never knew me..

i never said those..Sorry if u felt that way..Impossible for me to take it as I never knew you..Its fine if u wanna take it that way..4get it..nothing matters..it cant be mended anyway..

I don know anymore..As long as ur happy..u replied with words u never ever said to me before..excellent..u totally change..And I recommend u to not be that cheap..disgraceful..

Yha..Indeed I have change..Im not the girl dat u use to know..there is no way I wud turn back..And next time I wont be that way anymore..

Yup,now u are very different....Esp now u are close with my frens..Luckily Im in other place..If not,I realie donoe how to face all of this..there wud only be quarrel with them..dats the thing dat makes u happy isnt it?..

Nope,Im not happy..Its better for u not to quarrel..I just never knew u have always feel dat way..I tot u never care..

Ist ok..If in case u going back and wanna look for them,do as u please..who ever fetches doesnt matter..Only if they asked me out,Im not gonna join..better than later looking at u with that other who is my fren,I donoe what will happen..Its best not to meet up..

I told u I wont like him..Whoever is it..And I know ou wont believe me..

Not only him..But all..

I know..Whoever is it..I wont..I dun want u to fight with them..

Yha,just relax..If there is u, then there is no me....Understood?

Understood..But I dun wanna be that way..

i realie want us to be together again like before and being infront of them..

Then why not give both of us time to mend?..

I did,but after knowing those info saying that u n him acting dat way..My emotion rises..Its just impossible..

Because I dunoe dat you still care aboud me..Stupid..

Then why did u never ask me?..Cant u not realize from the way I get angry at u?..Stupid..

I only knew it now,,But before,I never knew..I realie dunoe..

Its too late..now my frens wanted to court you,its impossible for us to be together again..Our two years memories will end here..You start ur new life..Im ok with it..

I dun care even its too late..Why is it impossible if after all this time u are the only one I care aboud?..I know it's too late..But Im never gonna start any new life..Not until I forget u..

u alreadie forgotten me..If not,you wudnt act that way..

I havent..and actions means nothing..

Action means nothing?..U know what I am like..And hate u duing thing which I don like..But in the end,u still did it..

Because I tot u dun care..So I dun care either..

Yha,dats the problem..I dunow..Im going to bed..And good night..

Night,and don think too much..

Indeed Im FED UP..I had enaf all of this..

I cant understand whats on his mind..

Its like he is turning back to the guy I use to know..

Everything aboud it..
His attitude,the way he speaks..

OMG!!

Everything just make it seems like a dream..

Den it was this morning he texted me telling me that he is awake..

I dunoe what is he trying to prove..crap or revenge?..

watever..

Only "S" that has been texting me saying that he is awake..

wth?they are exchanging their roles?..

Anyway its watever to them..

He told me he is coming back this 17..

Sud I be happy or what?

Idk either..

huff..

Crazy crazy crazy..

And my work..

Its even worst..

Everything rush rush rush..

I had a very hard time working out all the urgent things todae..

Cos it was not usually done by me..

So I have to call and call and ask and ask..

Damn busy..

Everything urgent,making me unable to finish other assignments on time..

Boss not in either..

Haih..Wanna go home early and rest..

I had a hard time typing this post..

I stop in the halfway then I continue to rush my work..

Then I continue again..lol..

Alright..thats it for todae...

Im tired enaf...

=)

mwah..

secylia.c.tan.

Im Back

Its has been a long long time ago since I last open my blog and write something in it..

two years ago.lol.

I had nothing much in my mind right now...

so i dunoe what to write..

but I guess the more I write..

the longer it will become..=p

First of all,

my state right now..

Is working..

I have been working here for aboud 2 months training..

Just graduated from Mondial batch 2009-2010..

from IPA section..

holidaes aint coming after i graduated..

but instead more jobs to do...

Yup, I started my career here in Fanindo Chiptronic..

location in Batu Ampar..working ad the assistant of the HR..

but at least i get to spend some time with my frens..

jus like working part time for the first month..

so that i can get away anytime..lol..

sounds quite bad huh.

One month to go will be my college..

I enroll myself in Gici Business School..

location behind the Awal bros Hospital..

Taking Information Technology course..

I love sitting in front of computers for hours..

lol.

Anyway its gonna start soon..On August the second..

As I have heard there aint anymuch students at the course I was taking, cos it was this year that they firstly open the IT course...

anyway..Im fine with it..the better isnt it?

hmmmm...

Currently my Grand Pa is in Mount E hospital in the merlion's city..

Most Popular of all..I guess..

His condition is alreadie at stable..

But I just donoe if he is still in th ICU room or not..

maybe transfered to ordinary room..

The last time I heard was last night..

My grand pa condition gets lil bit better..

Cos of blood donation..

The blood pressure raises from 80 I think to 160..

The doctor said its normal..

I really hope he will get well soon..

who doesnt hope for anyway..

Dady will be back todae as mention by Mumy..

Mumy will be back on Saturdae..

Auntie n Uncle are still there,routinely looking after Grand Pa..

He is gonna be good..

=)

All I had was my Grand Pa in mind now..

so thats everything I wrote aboud..

Take care n see y...

=)

mwah..

secylia.c.tan.