Sickly Monday

As everybody hates Mondae..

me too..
First day of the week..

Gosh..I had lots of things to do todae..

From the monthly report that I have to submit..

OT of the employees..

And else..

Intend to bring home all my work and finish them at home..

Hope I can finish soon..

Submitted on 15 this month..

Hmm..

I have been missing for only two days..

And I cant stand it..

I have seen his post..

See how badly he is hurt..

And everyone seems to be standing on his side..

Saying dat he has done nothing wrong..

Alryt..Push all the mistakes to me?..

FINE..IM VERY FINE WITH IT..
Has always been letting other thinks dat its always my fault..

Im doing this not to run away from the reality,not fooling everyone either..

but I just wanted everyone not to be hurt..Is it really wrong to think dat way?

Hmmm...Storming hard on my brain..

But it seems dat nobody understand..

Everybody tot that I was trying to hurt him..To hurt them rather..

WHY AND WHY??Always saying dat he has done nothing wrong?..

Then Im the one..Who else?..He doesnt deserve this kind of pain?..then me?..

I deserve this..?

Nobody understands..No one ever does..

they only get to listen..

its not their fault anyway..it has always been mine..

isn't it?..

haih..sighing real hard..

how am i suppose to be with another guy when in fact i also have some other one in mind?..

isnt that just killing two birds with one stone?..

hmm..

isnt that just very hurting?..its being totally unfair?..

i never wanna be that way..never did..

dats why i tend to go missing and everyone makes it my fault..

i dun care how many times i have been saying dat everyone think its my fault..

i never get tired of saying those..

cos dats the fact that everyone has been talking aboud..has been concluding aboud..

i dun need anyone to understand me..

not anyone..

im enaf being my self alone like this..it has always been this way..

im tired enaf..im loaded with more than enaf problems recently..

please don add anymore to it..

and i dun need any confront from anybody..

ice cream and chocolate doesnt work this time..

its not enaf to at least calm down my nerves..

haih..

how i wish dat somedae im gonna lot of happy things in my blog..

not frustrating like this..

work busies me..frens accompanying me..

dats a lot better even though they donoe what things im facing ryt now..

as i have said..i dun need anyone to understand..

cos i know nobody can..and nobody will..

=(

mwah..

secylia.c.tan.