LA VENSA PHOTO SESSION

This are some of the pictures that I took three months ago..

Where I totally remember when it was..

Cos something happen on dat day..

And it didnt get any better..

Dun feel like mentioning it..

Hmm..

=)

mwah..

secylia.c.tan.

Sickly Monday

As everybody hates Mondae..

me too..
First day of the week..

Gosh..I had lots of things to do todae..

From the monthly report that I have to submit..

OT of the employees..

And else..

Intend to bring home all my work and finish them at home..

Hope I can finish soon..

Submitted on 15 this month..

Hmm..

I have been missing for only two days..

And I cant stand it..

I have seen his post..

See how badly he is hurt..

And everyone seems to be standing on his side..

Saying dat he has done nothing wrong..

Alryt..Push all the mistakes to me?..

FINE..IM VERY FINE WITH IT..
Has always been letting other thinks dat its always my fault..

Im doing this not to run away from the reality,not fooling everyone either..

but I just wanted everyone not to be hurt..Is it really wrong to think dat way?

Hmmm...Storming hard on my brain..

But it seems dat nobody understand..

Everybody tot that I was trying to hurt him..To hurt them rather..

WHY AND WHY??Always saying dat he has done nothing wrong?..

Then Im the one..Who else?..He doesnt deserve this kind of pain?..then me?..

I deserve this..?

Nobody understands..No one ever does..

they only get to listen..

its not their fault anyway..it has always been mine..

isn't it?..

haih..sighing real hard..

how am i suppose to be with another guy when in fact i also have some other one in mind?..

isnt that just killing two birds with one stone?..

hmm..

isnt that just very hurting?..its being totally unfair?..

i never wanna be that way..never did..

dats why i tend to go missing and everyone makes it my fault..

i dun care how many times i have been saying dat everyone think its my fault..

i never get tired of saying those..

cos dats the fact that everyone has been talking aboud..has been concluding aboud..

i dun need anyone to understand me..

not anyone..

im enaf being my self alone like this..it has always been this way..

im tired enaf..im loaded with more than enaf problems recently..

please don add anymore to it..

and i dun need any confront from anybody..

ice cream and chocolate doesnt work this time..

its not enaf to at least calm down my nerves..

haih..

how i wish dat somedae im gonna lot of happy things in my blog..

not frustrating like this..

work busies me..frens accompanying me..

dats a lot better even though they donoe what things im facing ryt now..

as i have said..i dun need anyone to understand..

cos i know nobody can..and nobody will..

=(

mwah..

secylia.c.tan.

Definitely not a Good Day

I'M FREAKING OUT!!!

It was a total disaster of what I damnly experience last night and today as well..

I cudnt stand it anymore..

Going crazy realie..

I decided to gone missing for the next coming days until I settle down..

And cool my nerves..

But it was not that easy as well..

My plan doesnt go right..

Cos the one I was hoping for texted me this morning..

Alright,first step totally ruin..

Im fine with it actually..

Hmmmm..

Lets start with last night..

I had a not very good night..

Even though I got ice cream to cool me down whenever I was unhappy..

It started with a msg..

Actually it happens few days ago when I was totally down..

Cos of my grand pa's condition..

I'm not in a very good mood either...

That guy chatted me..

Maybe I was a lil bit rude but I didn't notice at all..

Yay,he said something like jokes, but I didn't answer in a good way..

And becos of dat,we started a fight..

But by then I told him that I was not in a good mood..

He gets even unhappier..

Saying dat I pour all my "bad mood" on him..

It fired me up a lil..And I told him dat he doesnt even know my problem..

Ok,i never said a word aboud it cos he never ask..

In the end I only told him dat my grand pa got in the hospital..

He never replied and went off..

Arrgggghh..!!!

Then it was yesterdae afternoon he texted me asking me aboud my grand pa's condition..

At last...=)

I was glad of cors..

At least he does care..

hmmm..

everything was fine while we texted..

Den he suddenly didnt reply me,as he was having his college i guess..

ok..anyway he make me a lil bit better..

cos i was totally real mad when we fought..

just like both of us was being hard headache,stubborn,and unreasonable..

And here's the conflict..

He suddenly replied, and asked me what my relation with "S"..

Frens of cors..As I was only treating him that way..

Asking me what have we done..holding hands..

yup,we did...Other than that no more..

Then I dunow who the hell told him dat "S" put his arm around my shoulder..

It did realie happen in SV..I tried to avoid of cors..

After he knew it,he get so worked up..

So angry,so emotional,and so DISSAPOINTED..Hellow???

Who the hell knows what he is up to..???

How am I suppose to randomly answer that question..???

He finally said one thing dat makes everything so clear..JEALOUSY..

My mind was in a total blank..I tot he never cares..

And I answered him,who I am to u?and why do u care?..

u wanna stop me?..FINE..go on..

I have no right to stop..Its up to u..As long as u guys gonna be happy..

Bye n take care..

????????

Den what does he want?..

Cant I have someone to love me?..

Is it a mistake if I want someone to accompany me?..

Facing all this loneliness is not what I ever wanted..

He dun understand..

He said I can,but just don be so open,and also hate girls being dat way..

As long as Im happy..

he is stress and going crazy..

I cudnt undrstand my self in a moment..He is going crazy?

Yup,me too..felt what I felt before..

Next he said dat I finally had my revenge..and also said dat he felt this way before..

when he broke up wif me..And now its the second time..

Bravo!!"I tot we cud have chances,but its gonna be impossible..U guys must be happy.."

When he broke up wif me?..he felt what?..like this?going crazy?

Or is it Im the one going crazy?..Im not ganna be happy..

Cos I dun like that guy and I never will..

Yha,u happy now?..u had ur revenge..Congrats..n u said u dun like him,but u let him hold ur hands and wat so ever..

So u tot I really took revenge?..Im not dat wu liao..And I did avoid him alryt..

Is none of my concern if u wanna take revenge or not..All I know is dat,ur attitudde makes me real mad..Nomore..And the rest,its all ur business..

FINE if everything is our business..Why did u get mad?..Who I am to u?..I tot I was not important..Ryt?..Is it?..

For what did I got angry..Hohoh.Funny..Ur nobody to me..Dun be so proud..Just watch out..

Im not being any proud..I just nedded someone to be there..Needed someone to care..Thats all..

Dats good if you are not being proud..Just wait and see..U alreadie got someone..

Yup,I will wait n see ur revenge..And no one has ever been there..It's ok if u dun understand..

i will not have my revenge on you..U got no mistake and so do I,right?..If u think I am at fault, feel free to tell me..Im ok..

Nope and nothing..Its just being usual..Its just dat we weren't honest enaf..Never wanted to say what we have been feeling..Isn't it?

Yha,its like dat..So what have u been feeling after all this time..?

Loneliness..Has always been waiting..And never accepted anyone..

lonely?But now not anymore right?..Good den..Its up to u now..

Not anymore?..Who was there?..Nobody..4get it..Its my problem anyway..

Yha,its ur problem..And Im nobody to u anymore..U said it just now..So I cant accompany u anymore..

Its not u,but me..Im nobody to u anymore..U just dunow how important u are..

Im gonna vomit soon..u said it just now dat Im nobody to u..I retreat..Its ok..take it as u never knew me..

i never said those..Sorry if u felt that way..Impossible for me to take it as I never knew you..Its fine if u wanna take it that way..4get it..nothing matters..it cant be mended anyway..

I don know anymore..As long as ur happy..u replied with words u never ever said to me before..excellent..u totally change..And I recommend u to not be that cheap..disgraceful..

Yha..Indeed I have change..Im not the girl dat u use to know..there is no way I wud turn back..And next time I wont be that way anymore..

Yup,now u are very different....Esp now u are close with my frens..Luckily Im in other place..If not,I realie donoe how to face all of this..there wud only be quarrel with them..dats the thing dat makes u happy isnt it?..

Nope,Im not happy..Its better for u not to quarrel..I just never knew u have always feel dat way..I tot u never care..

Ist ok..If in case u going back and wanna look for them,do as u please..who ever fetches doesnt matter..Only if they asked me out,Im not gonna join..better than later looking at u with that other who is my fren,I donoe what will happen..Its best not to meet up..

I told u I wont like him..Whoever is it..And I know ou wont believe me..

Not only him..But all..

I know..Whoever is it..I wont..I dun want u to fight with them..

Yha,just relax..If there is u, then there is no me....Understood?

Understood..But I dun wanna be that way..

i realie want us to be together again like before and being infront of them..

Then why not give both of us time to mend?..

I did,but after knowing those info saying that u n him acting dat way..My emotion rises..Its just impossible..

Because I dunoe dat you still care aboud me..Stupid..

Then why did u never ask me?..Cant u not realize from the way I get angry at u?..Stupid..

I only knew it now,,But before,I never knew..I realie dunoe..

Its too late..now my frens wanted to court you,its impossible for us to be together again..Our two years memories will end here..You start ur new life..Im ok with it..

I dun care even its too late..Why is it impossible if after all this time u are the only one I care aboud?..I know it's too late..But Im never gonna start any new life..Not until I forget u..

u alreadie forgotten me..If not,you wudnt act that way..

I havent..and actions means nothing..

Action means nothing?..U know what I am like..And hate u duing thing which I don like..But in the end,u still did it..

Because I tot u dun care..So I dun care either..

Yha,dats the problem..I dunow..Im going to bed..And good night..

Night,and don think too much..

Indeed Im FED UP..I had enaf all of this..

I cant understand whats on his mind..

Its like he is turning back to the guy I use to know..

Everything aboud it..
His attitude,the way he speaks..

OMG!!

Everything just make it seems like a dream..

Den it was this morning he texted me telling me that he is awake..

I dunoe what is he trying to prove..crap or revenge?..

watever..

Only "S" that has been texting me saying that he is awake..

wth?they are exchanging their roles?..

Anyway its watever to them..

He told me he is coming back this 17..

Sud I be happy or what?

Idk either..

huff..

Crazy crazy crazy..

And my work..

Its even worst..

Everything rush rush rush..

I had a very hard time working out all the urgent things todae..

Cos it was not usually done by me..

So I have to call and call and ask and ask..

Damn busy..

Everything urgent,making me unable to finish other assignments on time..

Boss not in either..

Haih..Wanna go home early and rest..

I had a hard time typing this post..

I stop in the halfway then I continue to rush my work..

Then I continue again..lol..

Alright..thats it for todae...

Im tired enaf...

=)

mwah..

secylia.c.tan.

Im Back

Its has been a long long time ago since I last open my blog and write something in it..

two years ago.lol.

I had nothing much in my mind right now...

so i dunoe what to write..

but I guess the more I write..

the longer it will become..=p

First of all,

my state right now..

Is working..

I have been working here for aboud 2 months training..

Just graduated from Mondial batch 2009-2010..

from IPA section..

holidaes aint coming after i graduated..

but instead more jobs to do...

Yup, I started my career here in Fanindo Chiptronic..

location in Batu Ampar..working ad the assistant of the HR..

but at least i get to spend some time with my frens..

jus like working part time for the first month..

so that i can get away anytime..lol..

sounds quite bad huh.

One month to go will be my college..

I enroll myself in Gici Business School..

location behind the Awal bros Hospital..

Taking Information Technology course..

I love sitting in front of computers for hours..

lol.

Anyway its gonna start soon..On August the second..

As I have heard there aint anymuch students at the course I was taking, cos it was this year that they firstly open the IT course...

anyway..Im fine with it..the better isnt it?

hmmmm...

Currently my Grand Pa is in Mount E hospital in the merlion's city..

Most Popular of all..I guess..

His condition is alreadie at stable..

But I just donoe if he is still in th ICU room or not..

maybe transfered to ordinary room..

The last time I heard was last night..

My grand pa condition gets lil bit better..

Cos of blood donation..

The blood pressure raises from 80 I think to 160..

The doctor said its normal..

I really hope he will get well soon..

who doesnt hope for anyway..

Dady will be back todae as mention by Mumy..

Mumy will be back on Saturdae..

Auntie n Uncle are still there,routinely looking after Grand Pa..

He is gonna be good..

=)

All I had was my Grand Pa in mind now..

so thats everything I wrote aboud..

Take care n see y...

=)

mwah..

secylia.c.tan.

rules on the use of the comp lab..

rules on the use of the computer laboratory...!!!

1. The computer lab is exclusively for the classes on computer onlie..
Research work of students can be done in the admin area or at home..
2. The computer teacher must see to it that when there are no classes,the lab is closed,if however, the teacher would want to stay inside,he should only be duing his computer related work and no other else..
3. To be effective in carrying out the classes on computer, the teacher must execute the following rules :
a. that all students provide for themselves their own labeled flash disk..
b. that all flash disk of students must be checked daily to ensure that no games or any other irrelevant items are inside their flash disk..
c. that any student who are found in possession of games or other items in their flask disk, suspension from attending their computer classes will be applied and if repeatedly done,expulsion fromm school can be administered..
d. that if teacher tolerates or allows the students to play games or do irrelevant work on the computer, he can also be given disciplinary sanction for not being a responsible teacher..
e. that any damages on the computer unit voluntarily done will mean replacement of the damaged unit and suspension of 1 month in using the computer..

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hai calypxoo..
lma ga buqa liu..
esp my fs..
got so manie mssg..
friend request..
aplg comment,,
haha..

hr ini jg repotting..
tp ga report..
akhrny,,
catet..
hoho..
trnyata di pake jg buku comp..

dsni bpkny ddk tegak lg..
haha..
ngakak2..

uda ah..
gt aj..
^^

huhu..

pelajrn comp hr ini cpd..
susah na mao buqa web yg di blok..
like fs lar..
bla bla la..
sampe2 qlek jg ga bs buka..
ini malah bpk guruny mengilang lg..
ntah qmana..

uhm..
di squl todae..
ngantuk brat..
last nyt didn't have a gud slip..
falling asleep at 1..
toy2..

uhmmm..
till here fierst..
tdha..
^^