Here I go Again..

Almost a month I've been missing from this blog..
Random estimation..=.=''


Many things has been happening to me..
Both happy and sad..
First, I love my new phone..The X6..
Which cost 2.370.000 IDR..
Bought on 11'09'10..Saturdae with my beloveed mummy and sister..
Then i went to BCS for my new pony hair cut..
Back to it was..The straight one..Quite suitable..
Hmmm..
I didn't sold out the old phone 6120C..
Because it was OUR phonee..=)


Everything went not so smooth..not so bad too..
Both are balance..


I...had something in mind..
I don't know when did I post this status in FB..
Maybe few days ago..


I said something like..I regret for not choosing the way I'm able to achieve at..
To study in poly..I'm sure my scores are high enaf to enter..
Even though it is only D3..But at least much better than batamm..
Two years from now..
I finish my contract.. I dislike having my college in that kind of place..
Haihhh..
BUt Im very confuse of which college I sud choose??
NYP?SP?TP?..
Or what..


NYP and Sp are my favorite Poly..
But there is no course that I favor there..
And in case I take some kind like BioChem Engineering..
I;m doomed..Driving me crazyy..
but I know it gonna make me enter NTU or NUS.If I really study hard..


But TP had the course I wanna take..
Hospitality and Tourism..
And in case I finish its only D3..
I finish only until there..For three years..
But if I take NYP or SP..It gonna take me 7 years..


I'm really confuse..


=(
mwah..
secylia.c.tan.

Oh Yeah..!!!

Today's post is gonna be a combination of the past few weeks I passed so far..
Arggghh..
Now I talk about the first thing that came to my mind..
Mum scolded me this morning..
haihhhhh...damn it...wth..!!!
just really feel like scolding and smashing pple..
crazy..she never said thanks whenever I did something right..
Only scold me for the wrong..Hellowwwww..I will always reply whenever a msg is received even if it is not my phoneee...But I was damn busy yesterday...I have so many things to do..I don't even have the time to hold my own phone rather..Can you imagine....She just scold and scold..Saying that I know it's not your job,but at laest you should help me reply the msg..Blablabla..Then what I get when I answer lots of phone calls,you didn't say a thing either..crazyyyy...She keep on repeating saying that even though it's not my job even though it's not my job..blablablabla..This Shuang Hor thing is giving me a headache...
Can you just believe it!!!We already send an email over..So I don't think there is a need for me to reply..More over I'm BUSYYYYYYYY!!!haiyaaaaaa...I hate it hate it hate it...Notify them?..Unnecessary..!!!Im busy..damn busyyyyyy..And that damn Rini..She keeps on calling..Very lososoosooo...I'm also having my college that time...So I don't care..With Shuang Hor,we already sent an email,just notification is unnecessaryyy..and rini,not a big customer,so I didn't pick up the phone either..Next time don't give me your damn phone!!!!IIIHHHHH...
Boiling up plus fire uppppp..
and now another thing happen againnnnn!!!!


I opened up m face book this morning..
I found his face book status..
he wrote something like its gonna be a busy day today..fighting...
den my dai ko commented and there was this girl..
her name was......initial fann...
they commented each other with words i don't understand..
it was like a Korean language or what..
I went stress reading those stuffs..
I cudnt understand,,
and this girl has been commenting on his face book often maybe..
haaihh..
(Singing 'U drive me crazyyyyy")
Nutss...
I was likeee,my mood was totally down..
Den I started chatting with this old fren of mine,..
She is the first best friend of min..She understands me a lot..
=)
After chatting with her...
I felt that I don't really care about the Korean thing..
It was not really important..


nothing in mind already..


=(
mwah..
secylia.c.tan.

Orientation alias Ospek

This Ospek happened last Sunday 25 July 2010..
honestly I hate that day..
Flashing back..


I woke up at 4 plus..
To prepare everything..
Haih..
No sunblock applied coz I was thinking it might be a good weather..
It turn out to be that it was a damnly hot weather..
We started submitting the things we were suppose to bring..
It lighten our bag a lil..
Then we set off to bus number 38..
with the green team..
I forgot to say..We are the BLUES..
we all have the same tshirt..
with names on it.
=)


Next the journey was like half an hour...
Everybody was practicing the song,the cheers..
there were even a song for Gici..
It was not a nice song really..
ahahha..


we arrive half an hour later..
sitting on the floor..
it was an open court..
then writing our names on the INDOMIE board..
hanging over our neck with black ropes..
And I saw him..Yes,we were a bit embarrassed..ahhaha..


We then sett of climbing mountains..
Oh no..Tired like hell..
One of us fainted halfway..
Another one the other way..
=(
so sad..
we were the forth group..
So we have to pass the first second and third..
We have to greet them in a funny way..
It was a lil bit difficult..
but we still manage..
So we arrive on our post,high up there..
So far far away..
Hahhah..
We reach..
And look for a straw..The leader will be the one to pick up with his mouth..
I forgot.we even need to sing some songs which we get to learn in the bus while ago..
Until they are satisfied..Haih..
=(


Next..the instruction is to tied up all our feet together and yell MOOOO on our way to the DESSERT..
alright..we did..it was hard for us to walk all the way with the rope stuck on our feet..
by the time we almost reach..the seniors were there under a some kind like bus stop..
where they don't get hot..
hmmm...
they were saying that we weren't wet cos we pass a different route..not like some of the other groups did..
so we take off our shoes..hang over our neck and went inside the mud pool..yikes..
i hate it...
half of the body was wet and sucks..
=p


Next we were like walking with naked feet to our destination..THE DESSERT..
it was near..then bring out the noodles..and eggs..and the guys were looking fr some wood which can be burnt later for fire..
The weather was extremely hot..and in-expectable the time is only 10.45 A.M
Holy shit!!!Our skins were burning like hell..
but still we have to bear with it..
hmmm..i donoe how long it takes for us to cook the noodles..
but we weren't the first one to finish the food..
ahhaha..then..i donoe what else we do..
Like playing with a bamboo stick..
Then sliding down the ball with water..and making them out again..
We were the third winner in that..
There is also the one two three game..Like children..ahahha
Hmm..But the weather real sucks..My skin is burning..
Crazy...=p
We were almost done..
Gathering in the middle..
then my cousin had a gastric pain..
So I sent her to the P3K..


Ah ya..We won the most compact group after all..
But out cheers didn't came out well..
hahaha..
But at least we had the same clothes..
Hmmm..
yay..We took pictures afterwards..And set off through climbing the hills again...
My cousin sat on the motorcycle..
hihihi..
It was not that long like we expected..
Still,when we were on the bus on our way home to Gici,my skin is still burning..
Haih..


Yeah..by the time we reach..My cousin's boyfriend is already there waiting..
hmm...
Again,we talked..Me n Mr.48..
I said that he was tuning black..
He was saying that he was tired and wants to sleep..
I asked him if we could get home already..
He said he was just putting his bag..
Then when Im about to leave,we talked again..
I told him that we cud get home already,get our stuffs and go home..And I asked him if he has anything there to be taken..He said no..And I said that he cud go home already..he said Ohh..And we said bye...hhihihi..So happy am I...Even hough Im burning..
=p


So..we went home..resting and bath..and else..
And taken a holidae for Monday..
We were too tired to go to work..
=p


=)
mwah..
secylia.c.tan.

Totally Vexed

HEY!!


Its been a week since I lasted posted something...
As I have nothing in mind for the past few days..
Hmm...


Last Sunday, I went to Gici Uni for some sort of program..
They ask us to gather for this coming 25 July for Ospek..
Where is actually orientation for new comers..
I was in the first session, with my cousin..
One of my friend was there too..
Its not a smooth one rather..
Cos I dislike an Indonesian girl who has been controlling the group..
She is not even the leader but she acted like one..
The leader and the assistant were even nicer..


Will ya please shut up..I hated her so much..
But I have to bear with it, cos she was in the same group of mine..
Haih..Hopeless..
She only knows how to control this and that where in fact it isnt her job at all..


Next thing is..
I saw someone's car..
Its him..
Im not mistaken,,
I was out for the first session..
second session starts at 3..
he was there..
and just by accident I saw the piggy TV that I gave him..
It was a gift flom Singapore...
Yep..Its Mr.48..
hmmm..
I never try to think why he was still hanging that pig I gave him..
but Im glad after all..
At least he thinks of me whenever he see that stuff..
ahhaha..
all right..


He passes by and he doesn't take a glance at me..
Is it on purpose or he actually didn't see..
Idk..
I asked him yesterdae..
Since it was his first day at work..
I support him and encourage him..
I texted..And ask aboud yesterdae matter..
He said he really didn't see me..
Not pretending not to see me..
At least you know Im glad that he still treat me as his friend..
not like a total stranger or enemy rather..
that would be enough already..
I get to spend some short sweet memories with him..
=)
Im glad..I really do..


Time to dismiss..
Pack up and leave..


=)
mwah..
secylia.c.tan.

Being Stupid

Its another day of working..
Yup,Its Tuesday..
Sleepy in the office..
Gonna doze off soon in front of the computer..


My mood is ruined early in the morning..
Arrgg...Vexed up again and again..


I found that the pic that I and my some other working partners took in Singapore was post in FB already..
I tagged my self and make it my profile picture..
The first one to like was Mr.Lee..
Then we chatted in the FB chat..
Alryt,why did I chatted him..?


It was because last night he suddenly texted me..
He ask me what happen between me and Mr.Xu..
I told him what happen..
Cos some of them said things aboud me in FB..
Its the fren of mine and cousin of mine..
Nuts..


There is this word that encourages me..
He was the first one to say that everything was never my fault...
cause I have the right to reject someone,to avoid someone..
Now who the hell is wooing u?..He is the one..
so u did no mistake..
And many things he said that at least make me a lot happier..
^^
We stop texting cos he was doing some work of his..


By then suddenly he replied saying dat what happened in FB was not totally talking aboud me..
they are just talking aboud others..
Almost the same situation like me of course..
Dat means dat he went and find out the truth dat it isn't me that they are talking aboud.
So glad to know he actually done that for me..
And so we texted thoroughly..
Just like before when we were a couple..


But by early in the morning..
The FB chat thing..
Alright,he likes my pic as I had mention above..
Then we chatted..
Then he ask me where did I took it?..
When did I go there?..
I told him..It was flom Indosat..
And at the same time..He told me that Eve's mum were also invited..
In am moment fired up..
Arrgghhh..
I told him that it was none of my business..next time don't tell me..
he said alright..
and wanna go off alreadie..
i continue saying,
btw next time if there is anything that has to do with ur gurl,there is no need to tell me..
then he answer me, that is not yet my girl..
i told him dat the sooner the better so that u wont have to tell things aboud her to me..
he replied, so u mean if she became my girl, then im allowed to say it infront of u..?
I dun get what he reallie mean actually..


Hmm..
really fired up in a moment..
forget it..
It has always been like that anyway..
Im used to being fooled..
=.="


=((
mwah..
secylia.c.tan.

LA VENSA PHOTO SESSION

This are some of the pictures that I took three months ago..

Where I totally remember when it was..

Cos something happen on dat day..

And it didnt get any better..

Dun feel like mentioning it..

Hmm..

=)

mwah..

secylia.c.tan.

Sickly Monday

As everybody hates Mondae..

me too..
First day of the week..

Gosh..I had lots of things to do todae..

From the monthly report that I have to submit..

OT of the employees..

And else..

Intend to bring home all my work and finish them at home..

Hope I can finish soon..

Submitted on 15 this month..

Hmm..

I have been missing for only two days..

And I cant stand it..

I have seen his post..

See how badly he is hurt..

And everyone seems to be standing on his side..

Saying dat he has done nothing wrong..

Alryt..Push all the mistakes to me?..

FINE..IM VERY FINE WITH IT..
Has always been letting other thinks dat its always my fault..

Im doing this not to run away from the reality,not fooling everyone either..

but I just wanted everyone not to be hurt..Is it really wrong to think dat way?

Hmmm...Storming hard on my brain..

But it seems dat nobody understand..

Everybody tot that I was trying to hurt him..To hurt them rather..

WHY AND WHY??Always saying dat he has done nothing wrong?..

Then Im the one..Who else?..He doesnt deserve this kind of pain?..then me?..

I deserve this..?

Nobody understands..No one ever does..

they only get to listen..

its not their fault anyway..it has always been mine..

isn't it?..

haih..sighing real hard..

how am i suppose to be with another guy when in fact i also have some other one in mind?..

isnt that just killing two birds with one stone?..

hmm..

isnt that just very hurting?..its being totally unfair?..

i never wanna be that way..never did..

dats why i tend to go missing and everyone makes it my fault..

i dun care how many times i have been saying dat everyone think its my fault..

i never get tired of saying those..

cos dats the fact that everyone has been talking aboud..has been concluding aboud..

i dun need anyone to understand me..

not anyone..

im enaf being my self alone like this..it has always been this way..

im tired enaf..im loaded with more than enaf problems recently..

please don add anymore to it..

and i dun need any confront from anybody..

ice cream and chocolate doesnt work this time..

its not enaf to at least calm down my nerves..

haih..

how i wish dat somedae im gonna lot of happy things in my blog..

not frustrating like this..

work busies me..frens accompanying me..

dats a lot better even though they donoe what things im facing ryt now..

as i have said..i dun need anyone to understand..

cos i know nobody can..and nobody will..

=(

mwah..

secylia.c.tan.